"2nd month in the city of green parrots. I'm starving."
Me personally arrived with no professional interest in the subject I studied at my home university. I was running from home into this opportunity what Erasmus mobility offers to students. I was tired and bored of my studies plus in an unstable emotional status, from which the only way out was leaving my country. Chosing Barcelona was one of the best decisions of my life. The other option was Denmark to go, where educational system is absoulutely different from the average middle-european system. I knew that if I want to see something new professionally then I should go to Denmark. On the other hand Barcelona attracted me with its colours, the unknown and unstable. I was looking for extremities and unpredictable situations.
“I have never been closer to myself before”
Barcelona was the cold water split into my face calling me to wake up from a long blind and numb sleeping period in which others dreamed instead of me. I imagined myself into situations of a movie by Pedro Almodóvar and actually I really found myself in such emotional storms. In the second month of my stay I realized that I am alone. Being alone tought me how to take care of myself the way I like to be cared. Being alone tought me how to appreciate my relatives, who are my real friends, what are real and what are fake needs. I recognized my strenghts and my weaknesses. This period was rather lonesome and dark but I have never been closer to myself before.
I had long walks through the city in Gothic, El Born and Gracia quarters searching for answers to my questions like "where the f**k do I go?" and "who the heck I am?".I was running through the city failing to recognize the details and the shade of the colours. I was in a hectic rush to somewhere, feeling lost and chased by the shadows of green parrots.
The thing is that I found answers in the end (...) thanks to Barcelona and its quality to host all the lost souls of this globe. <3
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